Exactly what it sounds like.
…it really really sucks. All I want to do is go home. I haven’t slept properly in a while and..basically just want to be back and doing my homework
You should specifically ask the school how they handle anxiety issues. Talk about your concerns, get it in writing. Don’t just ask the people at admissions, ask the deans, the ACCESS services coordinator, whoever is in charge of the counseling center.
You could also do research on local support, such as doctors, support groups, etc that aren’t through the college. While some of that can be dependent on things like health insurance, it’s always good to know in advance that there’s somewhere/someone outside of the college that you can turn to. Sometimes informal/non-administrative support can help make up for some of the failings of Bryn Mawr’s system.
The other thing is that I think that the student bodies at both Haverford and Bryn Mawr are becoming more aware and more upset with the treatment of mental health issues at both schools. In fact I know that there is a group of students at Haverford who are looking to start a movement at both schools. Things don’t have to stay the way they are, come help us change them.
As for drinking on campus it’s usually fairly localized and easy to avoid most of the time, the exception being parties such as East versus West and traditions, which are rare. Personally, I wouldn’t worry about that too much. The Hell Week Committee is suppose to be making more changes to Hell Week to make it more friendly to those prone to anxiety. Plus you can always say no to Hell Week or any task during Hell Week.
I hope this really long response is helpful.
As someone who attended bryn mawr and has anxiety/panic attack issues, I will say they are manageable and you will find students with similar problems who you can form a network with. I know I am ever grateful for how my best friends have came over to stay with me or allowed me to sleep on their couch because I was having such a rough time. I have also found professors and deans to be quite understanding as well as a few great counselors at the health center.